So, my cousin Marlin passed away yesterday.

He had been in a coma since he had a stroke a few weeks ago.  The original diagnosis had not been good.  But he had looked like he was doing better than expected... He was opening his eyes and he could move one side of his mouth.  I thought he was getting better.  I really wasn't expecting a call from my dad today.

I... I can't go to the funeral, either.  I don't have a ride and I'd miss two days of school.  At least I'm home right now.

My mood has somewhat darkened over the past couple of hours.  Hm.  Probably not a good thing.

Maybe it's 'coz I'm super tired but I'm still sitting here, listening to JE boys in an attempt to make myself feel better.  Feel better about what, again, I don't know.  (Even though I secretly do, I just don't want to think about it).

Hung out with Becca and Jason, who are now (finally) a couple.  It didn't bother me that they were somewhat cuddly too much.  Just kind of made me feel... like I'm missing out.  Not to be confused with left out (Jason made sure I didn't feel left out), mind you.  It's kind of like I got invited to a party but had something else that needed to be done.  Like I could have gone and had a great time, but I didn't.

Wow, JE boys are not making me feel any better.  Maybe it is sleepiness.  (But, mostly, I think it's loneliness).  Actually, I think it might be because I ate way too much at dinner.  Yeah, I think I'll go sleep off all this food.

I don't know.  I don't know about anything anymore.

Dyed my hair today.  It's the same color, just more vibrant.  Oh, and there are supposed to be highlights, but that didn't quite turn out the way I wanted it to.  Whatever.

Went to Oshaberi for once tonight.  Might have been enjoyable if I hadn't had to call my dad.

Speaking of, that went pretty much as I expected it to.  No loans for me.  I get to work to earn that much money.  Yay.  But at least they haven't told me I couldn't go.  I just don't know how I'm going to get all this money.

My mood was lightened when I was finally able to check my email.  ^_^ v

...I wanted to be in bed two hours ago.  -_-;;

( Goodbye. )